✨Picture in the middle was today right about to start my set. The picture on the left was Oct. 2016 and picture on the right was Sept. 2016 right before starting a set✨
⚡️Before I start the long novel I'm about to write, I want to let y'all know I'm super shy and not good with words so I'm sorry if this is all over the place.⚡️
Okay, so lately I've been in kind of a funk. I haven't been feeling great about my self. Seeing all these fitness girls that are all around my age and super fit and successful started to hum me. It for some reason had made me feel like a failure. I never have really thought much about myself. I've struggled with self image ever since I could remember. Although, I'm doing better now, it's something that's really hard to overcome. Lately, it's been creeping on me. It's been really hard to fight. I looked in the mirror and felt disgusted. I felt like I wasn't pretty enough or like none of the work I've done has paid off. The reason I have felt this way is because I'm comparing myself to others. That's one of the worst things you can do. NEVER compare yourself to anyone else. That'll only bring you down.
Tell yourself you are beautiful. Tell yourself you're doing a great job. Don't let anyone bring you down. Learn to love yourself, it's probably one of the best things you'll ever do.
Recovering from the psychological damage from an eating disorder or with hating who you are is hard. But you can do it. At one point in my life I wouldn't even look at myself in the mirror. I couldn't stand what I looked like or who I was. Tell yourself you are great, amazing, beautiful, handsome, etc. One day I hope to inspire and help people who struggle.
With that being said I'm really proud of this progress. The comparison pictures aren't the greatest but I can tell the difference. I remember looking back to the video I got the screenshot from on the right and hating it. I didn't take any pictures that day because I felt disgusted. I'm proud of how far ive come in the past 7 months.
Thank you to whoever read this. I hope y'all have a great night. 😘