The Fat Joke
This is absolutely terrifying for me, but I feel like giving you any less would be inauthentic.
So here I go, fuck it attitude and all 🖕🏻 I always thought that someday I would lose a whole bunch of weight and have this grand reveal wearing a bikini 👙 and that I suddenly wouldn't hate myself anymore. I thought that I only deserved the cute suit if I were skinny.
A couple of months ago, my friend and I decided we had earned a break from work and booked a trip to Mexico 🏝☀️ While shopping for the necessities, she talked me into a super cute Torrid "fatkini" that I had been eyeing for weeks. I bought it, knowing I'd never have the nerve to actually wear it. After all, I have never worn a revealing bathing suit and nobody has seen my thighs since childhood.
But I bought it. And I packed it. And on my last day here, after a lot of consulting, I did it. I put it on and I fucking walked outside 🙌🏻 So many women here of all shapes and sizes are enjoying their time in every kind of suit imaginable. I spent the past week in big long shorts, stretchy tankinis, and sad hunched shoulders.
Although I am still terrified and sitting poolside wishing that this bathing suit maybe looked a little different--I am proud of the progress I've made in the past couple of years ✨
So here I am world 🌎 fat, cellulite, sunburn and all ✌🏻