I was so angry... my inner Lilith rose up & the warrior within was activated with the need to shout out to the World "YOU CAN'T BREAK ME!" I secluded myself from the World for nearly two years. I dug deep inside myself & faced the demons that Lilith had called out. She forced her hand into my chest & ripped it open to reveal the darkness that masked my heart with pain.
Lilith initiated me into my shedding & the cleansing of my spirit. She sparked a fire within me that burned away the things I thought I was forever stained with. She made me watch them burn, forcing my eyes open to see them be consumed by the flames. It was not easy, I wanted the fire she gave me fuel my anger. It felt powerful. To blame others, & give them accountability for my suffering. They deserve it. They took so much from me... & I let them. A product of my environment; a prisoner to my own sorrow.
Transmute the pain. Use this fire for your alchemy of Self.
Then the real power came. The freedom. The release that forgiveness offers & the cycles that are destroyed. This was her gift behind the rage.
She speaks to us all. Lilith reminds you of your power that lies within your darkness. Only, this power is not to be abused - or the cycles she tries to break you from will get worse, as the message gets louder, & louder. When you don't listen to your soul's cries for release out of the prison of your pain, then you will allow the darkness to consume you.
Lilith will not relieve you of this lesson until is surpassed. It takes strength, awareness, & most of all.. understanding of the cosmic order behind your shadow work. #fbf of my old modeling days... my angry days that transformed into my Monk Life.